A Long Hard Road......But So Worth The Wait!!!

The January before Macrae turned 2, which was about 18 months ago, we decided that we were emotionally ready to try and have another baby.  I had been praying about what to do and got my answer that we needed to try everything we could to get MacRae a sibling.  I had been hanging on to my prescriptions for Clomid & Glucophage ( Fertility Medications) already for a few months, preparing myself to start this process again.  We figured that it worked to get pregnant with MacRae, so we had every hope that we would get pregnant within a year or so.  Well we were wrong.

We started out by just doing the regular dose and when that didn't bring any results my doctor doubled it.  I took it the next month at the doubled dose and still no luck.  We then tripled it for four more rounds, and it still wasn't working.  I was so sick throwing up every day, my hair falling out, gaining weight, and so emotional, but still nothing.  I then went in for a HSG procedure where they put die through your fallopian tubes to look for any blockage.  My left one was blocked, and so they cleaned it out.  We then were so hopeful that it would work this month.  But we were met with just disappointment again.

After nine rounds and an entire year of trying, we decided that we just needed a break and so did my body.  I got off of all the hormones, and just let my body get back to normal.  We took a very much needed trip to Hawaii, followed by an amazing trip to Disneyland.  I lost weight and starting running again, and felling like myself.  When we got home from Disneyland we scheduled our appointment with the Reproductive Care Center.  I canceled and rescheduled my appointment 3 different times, because it was so hard to have to sign up to deal with all the disappointment again.

After a month of dragging my feet we finally went in and talked to our new doctor Dr Heiner.  He was amazing and very positive.  He figured out that I have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome, and was convinced that if they could just get me to ovulate then we would be able to conceive.  After trying for so long, we were anxious to get started, so I began talking a new oral medication called Femara the following month.

This first month on the new medication I finally got a positive ovulation test, and went in 24 hours later for an IUI Insemination.  We then had to wait 2 weeks to see if it worked.  I had convinced myself that it was going to work, I felt like I had morning sickness, and I was certain that I was pregnant.  But that dreadful day came, and I realized I wasn't.  I was heart broken.  I felt like I had waisted the last 15 months of my life for nothing.  This I think was the lowest I had felt during the last 5 years.  Luckily I have an amazing husband, that doesn't get sick of telling me sweet things, or listening to me cry.

A few days later I went in for an ultrasound to see if my eggs were viable, or if it was time to think about other options.  My ultrasound showed that everything looked exactly how it should.  So we then decided to try another month.  This month I took the same oral medication Femara, also with FSG Injections, and HCG Injections, followed by internal ultrasounds 3 times a week.  We got another positive ovulation test, and the ultrasound showed that we had 3 viable eggs, so we went ahead with the IUI Insemination again.

The next 2 weeks waiting, was the longest 2 weeks of my life.  I would not let myself think that it would work even work for a second, because it was to hard to deal with.  The day finally came when I was supposed to do a pregnancy test.  I took it first thing in the morning, and when I got a positive result, I had to keep looking at it because I was convinced I was seeing it wrong.  I then called my doctor and went straight there for a blood test.  The test came back that I was pregnant and that my hormone levels were what they were supposed to be. 

I just could not believe it.  I didn't tell Stu what I had been doing all that day, because I was afraid if I told anyone it wouldn't be true.  That day when he got home I had MacRae put on a shirt that said Big Brother (that I had bought 6 months earlier), and walk into the bathroom and show him.  The look on his face was priceless, and I saw all the worry and stress leave instantly.  I am glad that I am the only one that got to see it, since it was so special.

I went back a few days later for another blood test, and my levels had more than double, so everything was going perfectly normal.  We then had to wait another 2 weeks to come in for an ultrasound, to make sure everything was alright.  For the next 2 weeks I could not stop smiling and thanking my heavenly father for such an amazing miracle.

The day we went to our appointment we were both excited, and just smiling like 2 little kids.  The doctor came in and started the ultrasound he was scanning along and said " I see the first sack."  Me and Stu both thought, first sack as opposed to how many?  He then said, "Here is the first sack and the second sack.", and showed us a picture of there little beating hearts.  We knew that there was a 40% chance of twins, but we didn't think that we could really have twins.  But there they were on the screen and we could see there little heartbeats, and see them moving.

If they look anything like this beautiful boy, they will be perfect!!!

I have had 3 ultrasound since then, and I am now 11 weeks along.  Every time I get to see and hear them, it just melts my heart, and I forget about all that we have gone through to get them.  I feel so blessed, and can't believe that this is really happening to me.  I never thought that we would have MacRae, and now I will be blessed to be a mother of 3.  I feel so under qualified for this job, but I know that my Heavenly Father, and Stuart have faith in me and that is all I need.  It will be a long wait to finally hold my sweet little babies, but I am going to love every minute of it.  Most people never get to witness a miracle in their lives, but I have been blessed with three!!!

Here are our sweet little babies:

Baby A

Baby B

The 2 Together